…for restarting forward progress.
You know, looking for a job can be a soul-crunching process. It can make you question your self-worth…your future…all the academic, personal and professional decisions you have made up to this point. It can make you want to burn the meaningless paper your degrees are printed on. It can make you suspect every positive word anyone has ever said about you. You begin to think…so many job postings, so many employees needed—how can no one want to hire me??? This job you are over qualified for. This one you would love, but you are under qualified for.
Well, this is exactly the mood I have been in lately. Moping around. Sure no one would hire me. Depressed and down.
To get myself out of that sorry state, I have been listening to a lot of music. A little music therapy, if you will. To try to regain a sense of optimism and forward progress, I have to musically convince myself that this, too, shall pass. I have to also do a little bragging: Eff alla y’all if you won’t even look at my resume/CV—You’ll be sorry one day. I have to think of myself as misunderstood, miscast—but just waiting to be appreciated by the right place of employment. I have to convince myself that this job or that job must have not been for me anyway…that my not getting them means that my real true passion is right around the corner.
- “Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger” is not officially “old school” (especially not this Neptunes produced version) but I had to include it because of how positive it makes me feel. What doesn’t kill me will make be harder, better, faster, stronger. Indeed!
- Singing Barbra Streisand’s version of “Putting It Together” makes me feel like a brilliant, misunderstood ar-teest. I survived the writing of my dissertation in large part by playing this song over and over.
- Bill Withers is singing “Lovely Day” directly to me—as is Stevie singing “Don’t You Worry ‘Bout a Thing.” Hey, if these two tell me it’s all gonna be alright, who am I to still wear the long face?
- EWF says step up and “Keep Your Head to the Sky” and Fleetwood Mac reminds me that The “World [keeps on] Turning” and, though through past experience I know they are right, it still helps to hear.
- Finally, Heavy D an’ ’em singing “We Got Our Own Thang” make me feel boastful and big, full of swagger and such—better than all the rest.
I still do not have a job. But I am hopeful about this latest application I have submitted. The job was practically made for me and I was practically made for it. I can see myself sitting at the desk and passing out my new business cards. And if—somehow, impossibly, amazingly—I do not get the job, then it was not really for me.
Ima be alright.
Especially today, on OSF. Have a good one, everybody, and a great weekend!
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